just wonder

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 00:38:33 GMT

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 18:04:43 GMT

JOIN THE IN CROWD OR DIE!

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 02:20:06 GMT

what to even say anymore.

tears on the keyboard

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 13:10:15 GMT

Dear Shannon,

This letter will contain no lies, no barriers, no anything. This is all solid truth. All I ask is that you read through to the end.

First off, I'm just going to cut straight to the point: Why don't you want to be my friend anymore? Well, maybe you do, but it sure seems like you don't. You don't call, our conversations are meaningless, and you stop them before we can get into something intense, whether it'll make us mad or not.

In your away message the other night, it said "I can't even trust my friends anymore". I'm assuming that was about me. Okay. I'm not going to ask you to trust me, because I don't trust me either. But I would like to know why you can't trust me. I know you're trying to prevent a fight, Shannon, but maybe it's better to fight and make up then let this tension go on.

You said someone thought I was jealous of you. Yes, I will admit it, I am. You probably guessed that already. It's just, I don't know... it's like you've gotten everything I've ever wanted. You're beautiful, you're smart, you're sweet yet saucy, you can attract any guy... and I'm happy that you're like that but yet I can't help feeling like that's a living reminder that I'm not all that.

You also said you feel like "you're in my way" a lot, and that I don't want you around. I don't know why you'd you think that. I honestly don't. Is it because I've made some other friends, or what? Well, if it is, NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU. EVER. I didn't leave Bethany and Bekah for you only to have you replaced. It's because I knew you could be one of the best friends I've ever had, which you ARE. But I'm also confused, because it seems like I'm in your way a lot. Like I'm just tagging after you, or something. Especially at social events.

That whole thing with Shane... yes, I was mad for a little bit, and sad, but I know you didn't know that I liked him. If you had, that would've changed a lot. But you didn't. It hurt a little bit, but I can't let a guy come between us, especially when it's really not a big deal anymore.

I hope you know that, through this entire year, going through fights, pain, tears, and even a little blood, I never once doubted our friendship except at the end of summer, but we became friends again.

But the one thing I'm most concerned about, and hurts the most, is not because you can't trust me, and it's not that we don't talk anymore, or even jealousy.

It's that you seem to be giving up on our friendship so easily.

And even worse?

You won't tell me why.

-- Lori

P.S. I had to do this on my LiveJournal because the computer at work doesn't let me into my Hotmail account for security reasons, and my computer at home's Internet sucks. But this will be deleted after you read it.

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 22:21:06 GMT

Get to know me a little better before you add me to your LJ.

Burgled from Tori =DDD.

Firsts

First job: Transcriptionist at my Daddy's office =DD
First screen name: LiLpNaYbAnG (LMFAO, now that I think about it, that sounds dirty.)
First funeral: Grandpa ='(
First pet: Goldie the Golden Goldfish.
First piercing/tattoo: ears.
First credit card: Not yet ='(
First kiss: 2nd grade on the cheek.
First favorite musician: Spice Girls =DDD

Lasts

Last car ride: Mom taking me home from Evan's baseball game.
Last movie watched: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Last beverage drank: Iced tea.
Last food consumed: pizza
Last phone call: Shannabanana. XD
Last time showered: In the morning.
Last CD played: Evanescence
Last website visited: Tori's Livejournal.

Now

Single or Taken: Single... but not for long =DDD
Sex: Female.
Birthday: February 21
Sign: Pisces
Hair color: dark, dark brown
Eye color: dark, dark brown
Shoe size: 7 1/2, 8
Height: 5'3

Right now what are you...

Wearing: green cargos, a black tanktop, and a yellow light hoodie
Drinking: iced-tea
Thinking about: ~~Evan~~. Shane.
Listening to: "Leave (Get Out)" by Jojo. It's okay.

Favorite......?

Soft drink: Pepsi.
Movie: Harry Potter 3... School of Rock... Finding Nemo
Band: Evanescence, The Beatles, Coheed & Cambria
Local Band: My one-girl band. XD
Website: Fanfiction.net.
Food: Pizza =DDD
Fictional Character: Roiben from Tithe by Holly Black.
Candy: anything chocolate =DDD
Vacation spot: any beach
Club/Bar: Wal-mart XD
Movie actor/actress: Johnny Depp (of course) and Julia Stiles
Car: Mercedes
Sneaker: Conversae =D
Curse word: Shit, damn, and piss
Season: summer =DD
Time of day: 9 at night.
Holiday: Christmas... presents =DD
Color: purple and blue
Colognelue/Perfume: Holy fuck... Tori and I have the same favorite scent.. "Sweet Pea". (Mine's by Body Basics. Good shit.)
Magazine: CosmoGIRL
Book: Tithe: A Modern Faerie Tale by Holly Black and Guitar Girl by Sarra Manning
Animal: pandahs
Hiding spot: under Phil. (Trampoline, perverts)
Place to go and just think: my room or any corner
Breakfast cereal: Rice Krispies
Relative: my brother... isn't that weird? oh and Daddy =DD
Smell: Axe cologne... that makes me faint
Fruit: Strawberries and pinapple =DDD

woot.

Friends-Only

Fri, 06 Feb 2004 19:23:34 GMT

I hope she can scare you away. XD

Anyhow, if you really ARE persistent, here's all you have to do:
1. Add me.
2. Comment.

I'll add you. It doesn't take much. Just comment below. ^_^

NOTE: To all my old LJ friends, you're still on here.